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[Jan. 13th, 2008|10:52 am] |
Hey, anyone know someone who is looking to get rid of or sell a car? My car shit a tranny this past week and I'm looking for a car so my mother can have her car back. lemme know asap please.
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[Dec. 1st, 2007|04:22 pm] |
9lbs 7oz 20.5 inches long, November 8th @ 9:51am :) |
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[Nov. 24th, 2007|03:47 pm] |
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So for the past two days now I've been told "I don't want to see you until you need to bring me into work." From a very angry Josh. Let me explaine why he's said this. *ahem* I was suppose to call my landlord at the beginning of the month to let him know that rent was going to be late since Josh didn't have the money for rent this past month. So yeah, I didn't call because of being overwhelmed by everything else. My mistake was telling Josh that I did call him, when I totally intended on calling him before going into the hospital but then we had then we had that mishap right before me going in and me pretty much having an emotional breakdown. So anyway, our landlord came to our door yesterday morning asked where rent was and said that he was just called last week, which is true because I finally got the guts to call him and let him know (finally) what was going on. So yeah, Josh was furious he was yelling at me the moment our landlord left. Put on top of that with the landlord, we can't pay our electric and next months rent is going to be late too. So we got a 60 dollar late fee with our landlord and a 60 dollar electric bill which I'm suppose to ask my parents to help us out on this.
Let me also say this: I'm -always- the one asking people for money or calling our landlord to let him know that things are going to be late. He has never once offered to call and let our landlord know anything. It's always on me and just yesterday he told me I could of -asked- him to call our landlord. But yeah, so his mom like never helps us out with money when we need it. Sure she gave us about 150 to go to WI she did help us get a car, but you know what? My parents have been in a lot of money to make sure that my little car is running and that we have a roof over our heads. I owe my parents so much right now I don't want to ask them for help again.
I eneded up pissing my mother off on thanksgiving because of Josh. My mom and Josh don't get along. Period. My mother has put her best into trying to like him but ever since the whole Ashrum pregnancy they just haven't like each other and it's only gotten worse. That puts a lot of strain on me. What puts even more strain on me is knowing, KNOWING, that my mother in law is almost always read to calling children and youth services on me and Josh. Why? Because I'm the only one trying to raise two kids and it's fucking hard as hell when the only help I get is either at LARP or at my or his parents house. Does he do anything at home? Nope. Anything when we go out? Only at his mother's house. I -hate- asking other people to help me out with babies, but you know what? I'm exhausted. I'm so exhausted I can't rest.
I hate life, but I love my husband. Even though he thinks I'm a ceathing lying whore sometimes... Well most of the time, but he has paranoia issues, and stress, but so do I and I think I'm doing much better under stress than he ever will. At lesat I don't start yelling at my kids when they have bad diaper rash. At least I don't freak out to the point of throwing things and nearly breaking stuff when I get really pissed off. No. I take a moment or two to try and calm down and finish what I was doing.
So yeah, that's been my life so far. I'm generally at my parents house while Josh is sleeping until he lets me stay in the apartment with him. I don't know when that's going to be, but I hope soon. I really don't want to have to explaine all of this to my parents. I think that'll be the last starw between him and my mother. And for those of you who know my mother, she can get pretty scarry when she's pissed off.
Oh happy late turkey day to everyone. =) |
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[Nov. 6th, 2007|10:39 am] |
------- 6 Years Ago --------
1.) How old were you? 17
2.) Where did you go to school? Cedar Cliff High School
3) Where did you work? Suncoast
4.) Where did you live? With my parents
5.) Where did you hang out? Elisa's, Dmytro's, Richard's places
6.) Did you wear glasses? Sometimes
7.) Who was your best friend? Elisa and Richard
8.) How many tattoos did you have? 0
9.) How many piercing did you have? Both ears
10.) What car did you drive? Nope
11.) Had you been to a real party? Waste of time
12.) Had You had your heart broken? Kinda
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Taken
-------------3 years ago----------
1.) How old were you? 20
2.) Where did you go to school? HACC for a semester then the work force
3.) Where did you work? Weis
4.) Where did you live? First half of the year, with my parents second half with Josh
5.) Where did you hang out? With Josh and Mike at our apartment and Patrick's house for D&D
6.) Did you wear glasses? Sometimes
7.) Who were your best friend(s)? Josh
8.) How many tattoos did you have? 0
9.) How many piercing did you have? 4, 2 holes and each ear
10) What car did you drive? Cluncky old 89 Ford hatch back two door
11) Had your heart broken? Yes
12.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Taken
--------------------1 year ago--------------------
1.) How old were you? 22
2.) Where did you go to school? Wasn't in school
3.) Where did you work? EDS
4.) Where did you live? My apartment
5.) Where did you hang out? Our apartment in Marysville or Kyle's place
6.) Did you wear glasses? Sometimes
7.) Who were your best friend(s)? Richard and Josh
8.) How many tattoos did you have? 0
9.) How many piercing did you have? 4 holes, 2 in each ear
10) What car did you drive? 95 ford station wagon
11) Had your heart broken? On the verge
12.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Married
--------------------Today--------------------
1.) How old are you? 23
2.) Where do you work? Not currently working, pretty much just a house wife
3.) Where do you live? Marysville
4.) Do you wear glasses? Sometimes
5) Who are your best friends? Besides Richard, I don't know, I'm kinda losing myself.
6.) Where do you hang out? I can't go anywhere without premission so, my place and where ever Josh wants to go
7.) Do you talk to your old friends? I would if I could, but again, restricted.
8.) How many piercing do you have? 4 holes, 2 in each ear
9.) How many tattoos? 0
10.) What kind of car do you have? 95 Ford station wagon
11.) Has your heart been broken? Oh yes, very much so
12.)Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Married on verge of divorce |
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[Nov. 6th, 2007|10:32 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | Wish You Were Here, Pink Floyd | ] |
Two days before our baby girl is born and here I am at my parents house miserable and in tears because of my marriage falling apart... I just need some help, but I don't know where to go.
New number folks, 557-4626 it's a prepay because someone ran up my contract phone. I'm just so upset right now I can't even start to explaine everything. Call or text if you want to, if not don't worry about it, I'll manage like I normally do.
Later. |
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[Oct. 20th, 2007|11:19 pm] |
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I'm alive, just in a really bad state. But everything'll be alright after I have the baby and my emotional state is in a semi normal state and stuff like that. Just thought I would drop by and let everyone know. |
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[Aug. 15th, 2007|02:08 pm] |
I've finally done it. I've finally gotten Josh to break down and to see a doctor about many different things. ^__________^ Yay me! Something finally good coming out of nagging.
Anyway, I still feel pretty miserable but things are getting a little better. We have our good days and our bad days, but I still feel pretty distant from everyone.
So yeah, friends of mine, we should try to and get together. I know Elisa is busy moving **still gotta call you anyway, hmm, maybe you'll get a call TONIGHT!!**, and other peoples I either don't have phone numbers for or I just don't know how busy you are and I *hate* calling people and they end up being busy, thus is why I don't call people. Hmm, maybe I should change that.
Anyway, there's my lil update. ^_^ |
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| He got a hair cut |
[Aug. 13th, 2007|04:00 pm] |
And now he looks like Julius Ceaser. Crazy huh? |
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[Aug. 12th, 2007|05:39 pm] |
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I feel like I can't seem to do anything right now matter how hard I try. I know I've lost a few things that used to make life so much better than what is it, but I'm trying to figure out what went wrong and fix it to try and make life better and happier.
I can only ever seem to make Josh mad at me even when I try to cheer him up. I hardly ever talk to my friends outside the Cam, I know that having Ash has changed life a lot but I wouldn't change it for the world. I love my son and my husband, I just have a hard time showing it most of the time which really sucks.
I know Josh is under a lot of stress because he's the only one working and bringing in money so we have food and a roof over our heads and gas in the car, and with work putting him back on the phones he's not too happy with that and I can see it and it's really effecting home life. I wish they would have at least called him a head of time and let him know what was going on before he came into work. Sure I can under not wanting to, but c'mon, if you know how he's going to react on the phones you should at least give him fiar warning.
I guess I just want to be the person I was when Josh and I first started dating. I just don't know how to get back to that person. :(
I'm just sorry I can't do anything right no matter how hard I try. I'm sorry I can't make anyone happy. I'm sorry all I can do is disapoint everyone I know. :(
But other than that, I guess all is going alright where I and the family are. I just wanna feel wanted by people again. I'm almost always home with the baby Josh and I go out for D&D on tuesday nights but that's about all we do for going out.
Well I gotta wake up Josh and take him into work.
Cya. |
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[Aug. 7th, 2007|07:34 pm] |
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If I have not informed you yet: We have a living room and it's not infested!!!!! ^___________^ On other news my step brother in law is a total idiot. First he skips out on his hearing for his stupidity of drug usage and THEN to make things better he's not an accessory of murder in Harrisburg. Apparently it's been on the front pages of the local news papers today.
He needs to die. Seriously, he needs to die and save us the headache.
Wow, I'm a nice person, really I am, it's just the heat + being prego + a 18 month old terror = cranky and for all those cammies, Kaylene is at a humanity 1 for the rest of the evening. :D |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2007|12:18 am] |
I have returned from the state of cheese in one peice and just as cheesy as I was when I left. ^_^
Figured I'd let those who wanted to know know that I'm back.
Feel free to call/text since I'm not in roaming anymore!!! 717-608-4922 |
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[Jul. 16th, 2007|12:53 am] |
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Today I embark for WI, I shall not be back until next wednesday. Until then, if you feel it necessary or you're just bored, please feel free to call if you have my number. ^_^ |
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| My Son Is A Monkey |
[Jul. 2nd, 2007|03:27 pm] |
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Ok so, lets starts this with Saturday afternoon. Josh and I are sleeping because that's what we do when the baby is also asleep. So, I hear the baby crying and I go out of our room to see what's up with him. I always look towards the bathroom (which is the door to the right of our bedroom door which is right in front of the front door) and who do I see? Ashrum, crying with a sopping wet and soiled diaper. He was not a happy man. So I go into his room with him to change his diaper and I see that the gate to the crib is down and there's one of big people chairs RIGHT beside his crib so he could climb down it. So, I change his diaper and put him in the crib after putting the gate up and shoving the clothes basket that was keeping the gate down all the way to the back underside of his crib.
THEN not an hour later, he's trying to climb onto the dresser by putting his little legs onto the dresser and pushing himself OVER the gate of the crib. So I laugh at him and stick him in his playpen while I'll wake up Josh so he can get ready for work and that sort. What does little Ashrum do this time? He's in his playpen without a diaper and takes a LEAK in the corner. No kidding. This kid is werid.
So, then we go to my parents house and we see my Aunt Jean who's down from Haverhill, MA. We talk with her and she plays with the baby. We get home and he's trying AGAIN to climb out of his crib. So I take him into my room for the night. We didn't get to sleep until 3:30AM. Oh, I could have killed him since I had to be up in three hours to pick up Josh. But that was Saturday.
Sunday, I have him in his playpen. The little stinker threw off his diaper again, but this time it was quite the soilded diaper so I had to take him out put him in the bath and clean out his playpen AGAIN. Then when Josh woke up I had Ash in his crib and Josh had me put down the gate so he could climb out of it. Ash ended up right infront of th TV. Josh was there the whole time so no danger to him. And we repeated Saturday night by going to my parents house.
Monday, I put him in his high chair for lunch since he slept really good and it really helped that Josh was up until about 11am from the time we got home about 7:30am. So, I wakeup around 3pm to check on the baby. I see that he's in his playpen sleeping soundly. I look into the Living room where Amy is and thank her for putting him in his playpen. That's when she told me she found him walking out in the living room. Apparently he climbed out of his highchair and took a stroll into the living room. **sigh** My son is a monkey... But I couldn't love him anymore ^_^ |
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| Oh baby! |
[Jun. 29th, 2007|09:21 pm] |
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We're having a girl!!!!!! Her name will be Kitaria. That name is from the excellent book series of Dragonlance. If you haven't read it and you're a fan of fantasy D&D type books. This is the series for you. ^_^
READ IT!!! READ IT NOW!!!! LOL |
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[Jun. 23rd, 2007|12:44 am] |
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Well we're at least going to a Doctor's office next week. Step one is over. Hopefully surgery will not have to happen, but I'm not holding my breath. |
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| HELP!!!! |
[Jun. 21st, 2007|06:40 pm] |
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Hey everyone, this is actually a -very- serious question/whatever you want to call it. My husband has a lot of problem physically and mentally, but right now we're worried about the possibility of a tumor in his head on his brain has grown. He's spotted three black spots on one of his eyes and he won't go to the doctor's because I just lost my job. So, anyone know of anything out there orginizations or whatnot that can possibly help us out?
PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!! I don't want to find my husband's brain's on his pillow in the morning because he's too stubborn to go get it checked out because of money issues.
I'm horrbily fightening that the worst is going to happen with him. We've been having a lot of marital issues and this just tops it off. We're suppose to be seeing his father next month out in WI. I just hope we'll be able to do this. I'm sorry if I sound like I'm over reacting but I'd rather be prepared for the worst than just blow it off. |
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| You all know Jesus would be at the DMV promoting this ^_^ |
[Jun. 19th, 2007|04:53 pm] |
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I am -so- going to hell for this, but then again we all already knew that. I hope you all enjoy this as much as I did. Thanks Rachel, you made my day with this ^_~
VATICAN CITY - The Vatican on Tuesday issued a "Ten Commandments" for motorists to keep them on the road to salvation, warning drivers against the sins of road rage, abuse of alcohol or even simple rudeness.
The unusual document from the Vatican's office for migrants and itinerant people also warned that automobiles can be "an occasion of sin" — particularly when used to make a dangerous passing maneuver or when used by prostitutes and their clients.
And it suggested prayer might come in handy — performing the sign of the cross before starting off and saying the rosary along the way. The rosary was particularly well-suited to recitation by all in the car, it said, since its "rhythm and gentle repetition does not distract the driver's attention."
Cardinal Renato Martino, who heads the office, told a news conference the Vatican felt it necessary to address the pastoral needs of motorists because driving has become such a big part of contemporary life.
He cited World Health Organization statistics that said an estimated 1.2 million people are killed in road crashes each year and as many as 50 million are injured.
"That's a sad reality, and at the same time, a great challenge for society and the church," he said.
He noted that the Bible was full of people on the move, including Mary and Joseph, the parents of Jesus — and that his office is tasked with dealing with all "itinerant" people on the roads — from refugees to prostitutes, truck drivers and the homeless.
The document, "Guidelines for the Pastoral Care of the Road," extols the benefits of driving — family outings, getting the sick to the hospital, allowing people to get to work and seeing other cultures.
But it laments a host of ills associated with automobiles: Drivers use their cars to show off; driving "provides an easy opportunity to dominate others" by speeding; and drivers can kill themselves and others if they drink, use drugs or fall asleep at the wheel.
It warned about the effects of road rage, saying driving can bring out "primitive" behavior in motorists, including "impoliteness, rude gestures, cursing, blasphemy, loss of sense of responsibility or deliberate infringement of the highway code."
It called for drivers to obey speed limits and to exercise a host of Christian virtues: charity to fellow drivers, prudence on the roads, hope of arriving safely and justice in the event of crashes.
Martino's initiative was sure to make headlines in Italy, where car culture is deeply entrenched — this is the home of Ferrari and Fiat — and where weekend highway deaths make the evening news on a regular basis.
The Rev. Keith Pecklers, a Jesuit professor of liturgy at the Pontifical Gregorian University in Rome, said Martino was clearly responding to an underreported social concern: an increase in traffic deaths in places like Italy and Spain because of speeding, as well as an increase in road rage, aggressive driving and DUI in places like the United States.
"It may be surprising for people because we're accustomed to the church speaking out about sexual matters, capital punishment, immigration," he said. "The point Cardinal Martino is making is that driving is itself a moral issue. How we drive impacts on the lives of ourselves and others."
Pecklers dismissed any suggestion that Martino's "Ten Commandments" were at all sacrilegious, saying it was "creative pedagogy" that would certainly get people's attention. He stressed that they could never be considered binding in the way the official Ten Commandments are.
The Rev. Thomas Williams, a Rome-based theologian, concurred.
"It might be a little flippant but it's not sacrilegious," he said.
But for some, the document was at least reason to poke fun at the Vatican.
"Overtaking is a sin? Well, then I'm a murderer, I'll turn myself in immediately," quipped movie director Dino Risi, whose classic film "The Easy Life" — "Il Sorpasso," or "The Overtaking" — ends with a car crash.
"I think the Vatican has lost its marbles," he added, according to the ANSA news agency.
There was no indication Pope Benedict XVI had approved of, or even read, the document. It was signed by Martino and his secretary — as is customary for lower-level documents that are routinely put out by the offices of the Vatican's vast bureaucracy.
Martino is known as something of a loose cannon at the Vatican, and occasionally his pronouncements have gotten him into trouble.
In 2003, he was rebuked by Vatican officials for telling a press conference the United States treated
Saddam Hussein "like a cow" after his capture. A senior Vatican official called in reporters several days later to stress that Martino was expressing his personal opinion and not the view of the pope.
Martino hasn't shied away from controversial topics, either. Just last week he said Roman Catholics should stop donating money to Amnesty International because it had adopted a new policy calling for women to have access to abortion services in some circumstances.
The cardinal, who was the Vatican's U.N. envoy for 16 years, has also expressed support for genetically modified foods and he has backed scientists who question the seriousness of climate change. |
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[Jun. 18th, 2007|06:27 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Living Room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
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Today was a very good day. I got to see someone who I've wanted to see and talk to in over two years and everything went really well. I'm really happy about this.
Other than that yesterday pretty much sucked for the evening part. I'm sorry, but my life doesn't revolve around a fucking freeloader. We've done everything for them and the only god damned thanks we get is to be shit on. Fuck that. I'm done. I'm fucking done. I've had it. I don't want their stuff and their stink in my home anymore.
I don't care if they think I'm a horrible person. I got my own god damned life and so help me God if I have to put my life on hold for someone else other than family. So, they can take their stuff, take their trash and stink and walk out of my god damned door one last time.
Am I bitter about this? 90% yes 10% no. The yes is for -everything- we've done for them and what thanks we should have gotten we never have and never will. We've stuck out necks out for them risking our OWN home and we get a trashed living room and piled high dishes in the kitchen. Is it so hard to get a few loads of dishes done so that it's out of the way? When it's the only thing you need to do to keep a roof over your head, I don't think it'd be that huge of an issue. Apparently it is. We never asked for rent or any other money to be used save for gas. But I guess since gas money was put in my car you can go where ever the fuck you wanted to. Hmm, lets see what's wrong with this picture? Oh, right: EVERYTHING!! OMG!!!!! I'm so fucking pissed at this entire pointless drama fest that I'm at a loss of words.
So I'm going to end my rant there. Don't worry faithful readers, I'm sure there will be more. This bitch ain't out yet. |
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| Baby Update |
[Jun. 13th, 2007|11:31 pm] |
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IT MOVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like a minute ago, I felt a little kick!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Jun. 12th, 2007|10:40 pm] |
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Today was uber fun. We went to Baltimore, MD today. We actually got into the Cheese Cake Factory in under 10 minutes!! That's like unheard of to me. So we had our lunch and I got a nice piece of Oreo cheesecake with a bunch of whipped cream on it. Oh it was yummy but it out did me as I was unable to finish it. But I did have half of it. So I told the our waiter that there was to be no singing because I hate it, and I'd have Josh's head on a platter. No kidding, that's excatlly what I said. ^_^
So after eating we went to the science thingy. That was awesome. I'd love to go there again for the ENTIRE day. So after that, we went back into the shops and Josh bought me this wonder rose candle and wax burning thingy. It's really pretty. When I get a chance I'm going to take a picture of it and let everyone see it. ^_^ So yeah, today was fun and now I'm being a geek and playing Dragonlance D&D. :D
Yeah, I know, I'm a geek.
Yay for being in a good mood!!!!! ^__________^ |
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